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Suddenly there is a hole in my soul
when you left
It appeared in an instant like the aftermath of an
earthquake
Just as unexpected, just as devastating, and just as
unwelcome
Lives in turmoil, peace is shattered, joy is forgotten
I can't believe how big it is'
Grand Canyon big
How wide, how deep, how empty
There doesn't seem to be a bottom
Just vast whole-less-ness as far as you can see
Like a large puzzle with unique
pieces missing
It seems complete but can never be
Pieces on other people look like they might fit'
That sly smile, that quick wit, that
sharp enquiring mind
But there is no peace in those pieces
So I try to fill the hole with
memories
Memories that are already starting to fade
I also fill the hole with dreams
Dreams we shared and dreams we hoped for
But like a black hole in the vast
universe
Dreams, memories, words, and pictures
All get sucked in without filling the hole'
Without putting the universe back the way it was
Some days the hole is smaller or
seems to be
Like living next to a mountain each day,
The hole becomes so familiar it disappears into the
landscape
But, like the mountain, it is not
really gone anywhere
Then without warning the hole is back
Then there is hope in spite of the
hole
The God of Mystery and Majesty that brought us together,
Gives me just enough healing for one day'
Just enough love to see me through a day'
Just enough faith to move that mountain of a hole |